This life is a game of waiting. Some days I find myself twiddling my thumbs asking Jesus when I can leave. See, my heart has not stop growing for Romania. I’ve been getting joy just talking about Romania to people who have no idea what I’m doing with my life. It’s this uncontainable joy, that just wells up. I don’t say this to say that I’m a superwoman by any means, but just to inform as to what’s going on. My emotions are all over the place. I get this insane amount of joy, but then the next minute I start crying, because I miss my “family.” I miss the community I’ll be working in and those I’ll be serving with.
What’s insane to me though is I know that God has called me there! There’s this confidence I don’t think I’ve EVER had before. And although I’m ready to get to Romania, I also know that the Lord is doing it in His timing. With that being said, I think I’m around 50%. It’s so amazing to look at how the Lord is providing. Confession: Support raising isn’t about you! It’s not about your ministry and getting others on board. In fact, it’s actually about Jesus and seeing His ministry fulfilled through us. I know, duh…however so much of my life has been about me and doing things for Jesus vs. with Jesus. it was always about me. Well, there’s been this change starting to begin. I’m still selfish (hopefully a little bit less) and still need finances, but support raising is secondary to Jesus and spending time with Him.
The truth is I KNOW HE WILL PROVIDE. He always has…give me an example in the Bible where God never provided. Tricked ya 🙂 You cannot. God always provides for His people. And whether you know it or not, WE (not just I) are His people. He will never leave us hanging or left out in the sun-scorched land without the resources we need. Sometimes it looks like equipping us in different gifts, while other time it is finances. I know more than anything, the support will come in! In the meantime, God has blessed me with the able to share about Hope Church and the ministry there 6 times this week with some highly interested people. PRAISE GOD!
As well, when I was trying to support raise in my own strength, I would message someone and there would be no answer. Well, now that my focus has been shifted a little bit, people keep texting me or asking when I’m free, because they want to meet! For real! Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU!
It’s all about thankfulness and a grateful heart. Oh yeah, and don’t forget….it’s about Jesus.