This is long overdue…I wanted to write it last week, but then I didn’t have the exact words. I know why I’m in Romania…
About a week ago, God stole my heart. He is still stealing my heart as I’m learning how to give Him my everything. Let’s just be honest and say, with working in the office here in Romania, and teaching English and doing this and doing that, I have put God aside saying Later, Okay God, yes…we will discuss things later. Who does that in a relationship? Why? It’s because that person’s focus is elsewhere and it’s “nu bine.” In Romanian, that means “no good.” This is not what I was called to in coming here.
I wasn’t called to be here to just exist. I was called here to be an encouragement to the church and to speak life over this place. How am I supposed to do that if I’m not listening to God to speak the words over this place? No, this is why I’m called here, but moreso I’m called here to rest.
What does this mean? I have no clue…God actually told me, it’s time for me to learn how to rest. I have a tiny concept that this means sleeping in peace, but other than that, I have found myself “resting” by trying to stuff my life with things to do and people to communicate with on Facebook. Yes, this again in “nu bine.” So, I still have 2 months here and I feel like it’s going to be a big challenge to not have every single moment consumed by doing things. (P.S. 2 teams from G-squad are here currently and I would LOVE to spend every single second with them, but also know I cannot do that.) Lol…it should be that I would LOVE to spend those seconds with God Himself.
So, what have I learned so far….God is bigger and better than anything in this world. In the darkness, God shines brighter (even though sometimes you can’t see it in the moment.) I DO have a voice that can shake mountains J
I’m still praying for a miracle with support. I still need close to $1,400 by the time I leave here…which is still 2 months. But “rest in Me, Rachel.” I will do this with the help of You, God.
